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2016 is coming to an end, hasn't this year just flown past? I've achieved some amazing things! "Go ape" being one, that taught me to trust myself. Following the recent post I made about "not being good enough" I've once again had a conversation with myself and have come to the conclusion that I need to start re-focusing my priorities, I used to have everything sorted in my head and not even a male would distract me and I currently don't feel like that, which for someone who likes to have routine and be organised in my own head is very difficult. So it's time to get sorted and re-focused for the new year, get that little spark inside of me to burst into flames once again, I have so many ideas for my future and what I want to get out of it. 2017 will be a year full of enjoyment, excitement and achieving things I never thought I could.

I feel like I've lost and gained people this year, realised who I actually have supporting me and who I don't .. who I've tried to help and be a friend towards but when it comes to me needing a friend they don't step up. If that's how they feel and want to act then that's fine, but I hope they don't expect me to be there for them 100%

Every morning I wake up wanting to be better than I was the day before in everywhere I can be. I am in competition with myself. I have to beat the girl I was yesterday, I have to push myself harder than the girl yesterday was pushed. I am feeling a little more focused every day, i guess it helps that I am currently putting together a little shred for myself and a friend, this will help me get back to my happy place. I couldn't thank the few certain people in my life that are keeping me motivated every day. My love for you is strong.

I'm ready, I'm excited. Let's do this. 
Come on little fire, burn bright for me. 
Who wants to join me? 

Last week or two I have been inside my own head to much, I've been over thinking situations that don't  really need a second thought, I've been stressing over current situations that I have no control or all control over .. and ya know what the biggest issue I've got is wondering why am I not good enough? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not smart enough? Am I not sexy enough? Do I need to wear make up? Do I need to change my personality so I am more girlie? Do I need to draw on my eyebrows? I'm doing my best to try and improve my life, I have goals and have a future planned, i am motivated, I want the best for myself and my future family. I've gone through one of the toughest journeys of my life in the last year and half and still I don't feel good enough, I am extremely proud of myself but never satisfied. I tell myself time and time again I am good enough, one day I'll believe it. 

But Isn't it mad how one person, one human being - can make you feel like you aren't good enough. When really you could be the exactly what he needs. You'll push him to his potential because you know he has it in him, you'll motivate him because you can see his passion, the fire in his eyes, you'll be there to comfort him when everything goes tits up and you'll be there to help pop the cork on the champagne to celebrate his success, but no, he picks the  girl who may not do anything like that. If that's what he wants then he just isn't the right bloke for you, but that's fine, Chin up, straighten that crown and carry on with your growing life. He may realise what his lost. 

See I sit and write this out on a Friday night snuggled up in bed with my poorly pooch. I am happy here, I've had a bloody good work out and I stuffed my face with food. But is that boring? Should I be out getting drunk and dancing? Is that what boys want? ... Who knows. 

This is an all over rant like thing because I have so many things going on inside my head and sometimes you just need to let it out. This is just one of many things that need to get off my chest. 

I am sorry if I've offended anyone in this post but ya know this is how I feel currently, so I'm gonna let it out. 

Have a good weekend folks!

I've been doing some experimenting with new recipes! I don't do a lot of cooking but since being super interested in what I am eating these days I've been on the search for some healthy quick meals to fit in with my busy life! 

Firstly I had ago at making baked egg in an Avocado, I haven't eaten avocado before (on purpose anyway) so I was a worried about how this would be taste but I was pleasantly surprised, it was really nice tasting little dish, perfect for breakfast, only takes 20minutes to cook so it could be in the oven while you finish off getting ready for your day ahead.

My second breakfast I experimented with was overnight oats, I have heard good things about this breakfast dish, so I brought my ingredients and got tucked in. It was a perfect treat to eat first thing in the morning, Again I was so impressed with this dish and will be making it again. It was a great time saver as well, Personally I think it would be a great breakfast for someone who doesn't have time to cook in the mornings! 

This afternoon I've made a chicken salad I got off a Facebook page, the page is called "just eat real food" .. It's a brilliant page offering lots of different recipes with healthier options, check it out if you can! Anyway back to my chicken salad, it's a perfect summer meal for a light lunch or dinner. The cutting up on the vegetables is probably the most time consuming part, but trust me with the homemade sauce that you can make along side it is definitely worth the wait. I added a tablespoon of Greek yoghurt to the salad as well, thankfully it didn't ruin the salad, just made it better!

Below I've posted pictures of the three meals mentioned in today's post! If anyone is interested in the recipes please feel free to ask or have a search online, they are pretty easy to hunt down!  I'd love to hear your opinions on these meals or if you have any tips on how to make these meals better!

Hey Everyone, Welcome to my blog!

This blog is here to help motivate and inspire myself and everyone else who wants to read this.

I have a love for fitness and food! I am currently on a journey to make myself the best version I can be of me! If  I can inspire just one person to improve their life by using this blog, then this blog has fulfilled a purpose.

To start of this blog I thought I would catch you up on my journey?

In 2015 I had my heart broken, I had gained weight during the relationship, I was unhappy, had no confidence, body conscious. I was just a mess. BUT I refused to live like that when the relationship ended, how do I expect people to like or love me when I don't love myself. I wanted a body to be proud of. Firstly I  started to change my eating, I did a fair bit of researching into different types of foods, I wanted to know what is good for my body and what is bad for it, I then started to go to the gym at work and exercise, I didn't know a lot about exercise so I was pretty much doing a lot of cardio and few floor exercises here and there. I became quite disheartened  as I wasn't seeing results. Luckily  enough my sister and mum both work at DW sports centre, at the time they were teaching a young lad to swim, his dad was a personal trainer. that's when it all started.

I plucked up the courage to message this personal trainer asking for costs, he replied with all the information and before I knew it I was booked in for my first session  and to be honest I was scared, I hate meeting new people, and being so body conscious and unconfident, i honestly wanted to bail on my first session with him. I dragged myself to our first training session, we spent about 30 minutes having a chat about my goals, what I wanted to achieve. he was so understanding and I loved his enthusiasm, it was contagious! I started to get excited, he believed I could transform myself.

Nearly a year later, Matt and myself are still training together weekly. I am nearly 4 stone lighter than I was in 2015 and finally starting to accept myself, starting to be happy in my own skin. I still have work to do on myself but i am enjoying the journey! I honestly don't think I would of made it this far without Matt, He seriously is the best thing that's happened to me in 2015! I wouldn't swap him for the world.

If you're looking to improve your life then go and do it! Stop doubting yourself. I always believe it is as hard as you make it, take a day at a time. meal prep. do your research. join a gym and get help from a personal trainer. I believe in you!